I am so tired of the jealousy.
You do what you want, and I let you.
I let you because I want you to know I trust you again.
I want you to know that you can trust me, too.

What have I ever done,
that makes you so insecure in yourself?
What I have done that stops you believing me
when I tell you the truth?

You were the one who ruined this. Not me.

CHICAGO;

It's so insane that it's true.
You know that girl you said I'd meet?
Well, I've got something to confess.
She picked me up the other day.
Asked me if she reminded me of anyone;

I thought of us.

I just laughed and lit a cigarette,
Said, "that's impossible to do".
My life's become much simpler since.
It doesn't fluctuate so much.
Up and down. Back again.

But I'm still crying out for you.

I still think about you time to time,
Think about you lying there.
Those blankets always lie so still
Nothing breathes here in the cold;
Nothing moves, or even smiles.

I've been thinking of some suicides.

But there's bars out here for miles and miles,
I'll drink down my apologies.
Sorry for the every kiss
The every one you wasted back.
I think the thing you said was true

I'm going to die alone and sad.

The wind's feeling real and sharp these days,
Reminds me of you and it hurts me some.
I loved you once, and this girl is sweet.
I'll let you go eventually.
I never thought I'd feel so blue.

Fuck, Chicago I'm crazy for you.

I found you,
and it doesn't feel as lovely as I thought.
It's actually quite funny, in fact,
a sense of light-heartedness is a terrific thing to have.

So farewell, I've stopped searching.
I know you, where and who you are,

what you did and what you meant.
Where you disappeared to.

You helped.
So thank you.
Oh goodness,
I could not stop laughing if I tried.

I feel beautiful.

Do you ever not trust yourself to trust someone else?

I don't know, for a second I thought it was an accident that I'd received it.